My son is rumored to have “special” needs..
Ok.. I know he has Special needs.. With Autism and a Mood disorder ? I’m not in denial.
But sometimes? Sometimes I think my boy has things figured out better than I do..
You see? When my son is stressed? He takes himself off alone and does something he enjoys until he calms down. Most often that “something” is a campfire. He can sit for hours just watching the flames dancing in the fire pit. And with a content smile on his face, he will call out to me.. “Come sit..”…
But usually? Usually I am too busy.. Getting dinner around or cleaning it up afterward.. or there are emails to answer… book promoting tweets to copy and paste… research to search for… schedules to plan for..
Yes I know… it doesn’t sound like much.. but it seems like there is always something that needs to be done.
Last week I was sick.. and so tired. So I just sat down.. and read a book. NOT skimmed through a book.. but slowly read each page and enjoyed it. Slowly fell in love with each character.. resisted the urge to read the last page… read every descriptive word…
Refreshing… and I was oh so calm.
So why is it that we give up “refreshments” as moms? or even just as adults? Why do I feel like I have to sacrifice my favorite things to be a good adult? I was able to DO so much more that following day because I was content and clear minded…
So maybe my son does have special needs… but I still learn so much from him.