Second chances have a way of making you thankful for so many things. Even thankful for things you could never see a reason to be thankful for.
While I was sick with Covid this spring, I wasn’t sure if I would survive. There is a tiredness that comes with being extremely ill.. that has a lot to do with oxygen levels being so low.. and struggling for each breath.. and a lot to do with your body being exhausted in its battle. I found myself wondering if my body had enough strength to give the medicine a chance to work.
I was content with whatever decision God had for me… and very thankful that His decision was for me to finish what I started on this Earth.
With each baby step of healing came Second Chances to do things I may never have gotten a chance to do again.
Second chances to do things I love.. like stand outside … or listen to my kids talk and laugh and sing… take more photos… sing while I cleaned…
Second chances to snuggle with my family on the couch and tell them how much they mean to me.
I also got Second chances to be thankful for things I was not thankful for before. Like Dairy-Free/Gluten-free fake cream cheese in jalapeño poppers. Or Gluten-free/Dairy-free Oreos ..
I know.. I know..
WHY would I be thankful for something that sounds so tasteless?
I completely agree.. and I felt the same way…
.. but after spending a week in the hospital where we struggled to find food on their menu that I could eat?
I was so thankful for a second chance to fall in love with foods that replaced the 49 food allergies/intolerances that I have.
Over the last 6 months?
I have found so many second chances to love my crazy life within the crazies.
But the second chance that I am the most thankful for?
They say that procrastination is the arrogant assumption that God will give you another chance to do a specific task.
I have arrogantly assumed that I would have a tomorrow to do the things I love most.
“I can write later.. I can be me later..”
“Today I am too busy doing what everyone else has asked… tomorrow I will do what I had intended.”
Finishing the books I had started… now I have that second chance.
Sharing the joy I have found through my Faith and my family… now I have a second chance.
Sharing the knowledge I have found through all my research.. now I have a second chance.
Sometimes… in this busy world?
… we put off what means the most to us because we feel the things we “should” do are more important…
…but what is the point of being us.. if we never enjoy who we are..
… what is the point of having gifts… if we never use them..
I’m not saying I’m going to stop throwing a frisbee for my huge puppies… and I’m definitely not going to stop taking care of my kids…
… but I am saying that I am thankful for a second chance to carve out a chunk of the day to ALSO do things important to the core of Julie.
What about you?
If you were lying in the hospital .. concentrating on each breath?
What would you want a second chance to finish?
How can you fit that into your day?