When we go to camp with my family? Chances are some small animal will be captured within the first day..
Whether it’s a frog or a toad.. a snake.. or once even a lizard… That poor animal will be handled from one kid to the next.. making each kid enormously happy.. and making the animal enormously stressed.
Fortunately most animals take the stress well and just learn to carry on.. and well? .. I’m sure they will hide better when they hear the pitter-patter of little feet.
In some ways I know how the toad in this photo feels…
I love to make people happy.. especially my family .. especially the little ones. So by taking the little Blessings in my life for fun rides.. walks.. to make sand castles… to hunt for small defenseless animals … and to make snacks.. ? Tell stories around the campfire…?
It feels good.. I love to see them happy. In fact?
In fact it seems selfish of me NOT to do little things to make them happy.. It seems so selfish not to use my time to make the lives of other people better and happier places. So I have always avoided being selfish..
And I am always happy with my choices..
But at times?
At times I think I know how that toad feels.. over handled.. tired.. desperately in need of a shower..
Just recently I have been learning that there is a difference between being selfish with your time..
…and taking time to care for yourself..
You see.. if I have to choose between doing something for my kids and doing something for myself..? I will pick my kids.. and squeeze reading for pleasure in between bedtime and 1 am.
But I often do too much .. for too many people.. and I just end up feeling tired.. and overhandled.. just like the toad..
Last weekend we went camping for the last time this summer. As everyone planned a kayak trip down river, my niece came to ask me if I wanted to go.
In the past? I would always Loan my kayak to someone else.. because after all..
it IS my kayak.. I could use it another time.
As I started to offer it to someone else, my niece scolded me. And said frankly.. ” You KNOW you want to go kayaking.”
You know what?
I really DID want to go kayaking.
So I loaded up my kayak.. and we went kayaking..
This was the laziest, slowest kayak trip I have ever been on.. I got to take 300 pictures (no exaggeration there).. my nieces and nephew decided on trying to kayak the “gondola” way.. we got stuck a few times..
We got a little sunburned as our 1 hour trip turned in to 2 hours.. or 3…
We laughed.. we sang songs (loudly and beautifully)… we counted how many times the gondolas tipped over… and we let the peace flow into our souls..
What about you? What have you done lately to take care of yourself?
**No animals were hurt in the making of this blog…
3 thoughts on “…selfish…”
It’s so hard to find that balance between selfishness and self care. So glad you found it this time!
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Your words always seem to voice my thoughts. I know so many people say this, but, your writing is beautiful… simply beautiful.
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Aww.. thank you! That means a lot to me