Today I was flipping through the 100’s of photos I took last week.. and I found one I hadn’t intended to take.
The accidental picture of my shadow on the pavement amused me at first..
Partly because my first novel is titled “Shadows” … and it’s based on my belief that we are often affected by the “things” left behind by others in our lives.. the “shadows” that are left behind..
As I flipped through the rest of the pictures from that parade?
I started to see that picture in a different light..
So many of my pictures were intentional. I was capturing memories of my son as he rode in the back of a truck with a top hat .. talking to an angel of a girl. I intentionally took photos of the international students as they carried their flags in the parade. I tried to capture the joy on the faces of those kids around me as they enjoyed that day.
THEN? Then in the middle of these amazing photos.. is a random picture of the ground (and my shadow) .. that I had not intended on capturing.
How often is that the way life is?
Today I INTENDED to comfort a girl who was nervous about a presentation…
Today I INTENDED on being a good influence on a young man who struggles to trust people..
Today I INTENDED to encourage a little guy who hates math.. because he doesn’t understand it..
Today I INTENDED to impress on my son, the importance of good behavior in all places.. even the halls of school.
…but what about the other impressions I leave with people ..
…the impressions I hadn’t intended to give them?
My last few weeks have been jam packed and as I go into the last few weeks of theater season? They aren’t about to get any calmer..
… I always worry that in my times of stress, I will leave behind an impression.. (or a photograph of time…) that I hadn’t intended to give…
As a result?
When I feel emotions in me start to rise? Anger, frustration, impatience, .. or tears…? I take a deep breath … and decide on an intentional impression…
… and I hope that it’s the “photograph” of myself that sticks with someone..
.. and hope that it’s enough…
What are you leaving behind today?